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Hello everybody! I want everybody to have a good and safe night tonight! But fun too lol. 

I had to wait until I calmed downed before I could write today. When I’m upset is when I say shit I shouldn’t. But when somebody I care about turns on me it’s hard for me to do because this is my outlet. 

Anyway, hopefully it’ll all blow over soon. Kinda adds to making me feel alone but I’m handling it a lot better than I was. I’m still ok and still being strong with everything. I’m gonna make it! I will be starting a second job real soon within a week probably. And a third one online. So some extra income will take a shit ton of stress off me. Probably gonna have to move though, I think my house is really old and falling apart. Big problem with the floors. 

You know what’s cool is when you become friends with somebody that asks how your day was and how your doing, very few I do know ask me that so it’s pretty cool. Not trying to screw you or nothing. Just being a friend. I need those kinda friends. Life is hard. 

It’s kinda sad to be alone today too because my mom wouldn’t go to bed until the ball fell. When I was growing up we had to sit in living room with her. After I grew up and moved out until she died she would call or I’d have to stay online with her until it fell. So it kinda sucks πŸ˜”.  But I’ll make it. 

Again, anybody that needs someone to just talk to to get your troubles off your mind, I’m here for you. Don’t carry them around. 

Talk to y’all later! 

Love, Lori

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Hey Everybody!

Hope your day is going good. I’m being lazy today haha. Just one of them days and it’s one of my days off so why not? Lol

Y’all know I’m single.duh lol. It’s hard for me to make it. Some weeks are ok then some are not so great. But what I’m getting at….would you go out of your normal ‘limits’ to do what you have to do to survive? Just to get things took care of? Doing a job you normally wouldn’t do? Well I’m considering it and I’m trying to make my mind up by tonight. Idk. I’m not like against what I’m talking about I’ve just never done it and no I’m not saying what it is haha. Advice 😊?

Anyway I would love to start getting feedback on here from you guys. I want to hear from all y’all. 

Reminder: That ebook is published and ready. “Lori Hensley’s blog compilation ” on Amazon. And I did a video for my YouTube account. I’m asking for some of you to please share and help me spread the word. I’m not an expert at helping but there could be someone out there that has no one to talk to. And I can definitely talk and I’ve been there. 

I actually felt a little of that sadness earlier and found myself staring out the window. Could be why I’m being lazy today idk, but I’m ok, I’m watching chick flicks haha and pigging out. 

Ok so I think I’m going blind lol. Where or how’s the cheapest way to get some new glasses. The ones I have don’t help at all anymore. I’ve been using a $1 pair of reading glasses to write with lol. Remember I’m a broke chick haha, go easy and cheap. Lol

Thank you all for taking the time to read my stuff, I appreciate a lot!! Have a good rest of the day!!! 

Love, Lori 

Happy Happy

Hey y’all! Hope everybody is having a good day so far. I may not be completely all better, I do still have issues but hell who don’t? But I tell ya, just by speaking stuff out in that ebook I feel 100 times better. I just wish that I could reach people that carry this around too. I’m trying my best to spread the word. If you know of people that have been through some bad stuff, guide them here to read daily please. I can either help them with that, make em laugh or turn em on lol. So I know I could help somehow:). I know I’m already helping some out, I’ve been told by several. There’s no way I could stop writing now. This is what I want and love.

Something else I have a problem with is taking shit too seriously. I’ve always done that. I’ll stand on just anybody’s word too. I guess because I know I’ll do what I tell ya and I reckon I expect the same out of everybody, but not all keep their word. And that’s their thing, no problem. It’s just me, my little problem. It’s working I think lol. I basically just tell myself whenever I’m told something or something needs to be done or whatever…It is what it is and stressing don’t change it. It’s working because I’m not as stressed out and I’m slowly getting out of the house more and wanting to clean and do stuff. Hopefully I can maintain it.

Take whatever the problem is..think about it..does it matter enough to stress about? Most problems don’t. I’ve been through some serious shit all my life and for me to be able to overcome the majority…I pat myself on the back. If I can do it so can you! You live once, enjoy life. Don’t let your sparkle dull out. I don’t care what anyone thinks or says about me, that’s their problem, I’m gonna be me and live the way I want and you should also. It’s your life not their’s. But I’m literally begging please for those that went through some shit, please find you a person that will just listen and tell them everything on your heart. Let it OUT! You will walk away feeling so much better, I promise. If you have no one to talk to, hit me up on messenger and I will listen.

Oh and I was thinking and realized……I’ve never been kissed on New Years Eve at midnight lol. Anybody else the same? I seen a post on facebook that made me realize that haha.

Well that’s all I got for right now. Talk to you guys later and remember send those that are broken to this site. I’m not a counselor but just a laid back normal gal who happens to write and I think what I write may be able to help some out in some way. Thank you so much. Love you guys!

Love, Lori

 

Stuff I thought of today LOL

Hi y’all! Hope everybody had a good day. Mine was alright, but way better now that I’m off work because I’m off for six days!!! Yay Me! I will probably sit here in my woman cave and write. I have a book that’s gonna have five different sexual stories in it that I’ve started on, It will be quite long, a lot longer per story than anything else I’ve wrote. I really don’t know where this stuff comes from but I’m full of it haha. I used to dream of writing children’s books because that’s what I heard everybody else is writing. Y’all know I don’t belong anywhere writing kid books lol. BUT I actually have a kids book wrote that I done a few years ago though. It’s about a little boy and two dogs-obviously because I love dogs haha. Anywho, I am gonna write out here just some short little scenes that ran through my head while I was working. I was trying to not forget them because I couldn’t write em down.

But first I want those people who hurt on a daily basis to go read the blog ebook I published. If I can write down those horrible and disgusting things to share with you to help you. I believe you can let that shit off your chest too and be able to go on with your life. I really am concerned about you because I know first hand all about it. My situation was Really bad. And every time I get on here and just mention it, it helps me. I’ve been better for along time about it but this helps me even more. I know it will with others. It doesn’t have to be exactly my situation, its whatever you went through. Let it out and let it go, be happy and move on with your life. I love ya and I do care even though I don’t know ya. I may seem mean or bitchy but my heart is huge. Especially for those that’s been through hell.

On with the shit I think up hahaha! I’m just gonna use ‘hims’ and ‘hers’ and ‘they’ so I don’t gotta come up with a bunch of names lol.

*They were on a carnival ride, the ferris wheel. It’s a first date and they are really attracted to each other. They kissed and stayed close. They were getting hotter by the second. They got on the ferris wheel. Still kissing and touching while riding the ride. He slips his hand up her shorts and begins fingering her. The harder he finger fucked her the more noises she started making. He just went as fast and hard as he could and she started cummimg and screaming while going around on the ride. People could hear her and were watching from below. They get off the ride and people are staring and snickering. As they walked off one lady turned to her man and said “Your doing that to me, Right?” Hahaha

*It’s new year eve. They were at a crowed party in a club. Drinking and dancing and having a blast. They get to dancing all dirty and really close. She’s wearing a skirt with no panties for her man. There is so many people, they are literally back to back dancing. Her man is kissing on her and rubbing her breasts and rubbing himself up against her. Then she feels another hand and she knows it doesn’t belong to her man.That hand went up her skirt and was rubbing her ass. She kinda freaked out on the inside but didn’t show it. She allowed that hand to keep touching her. All the time her man is still dancing and rubbing up on her and kissing her. Then that hand gently rubs on her pussy. She has no idea who it is. Then she feels fingers slide inside her wet pussy her man caused. Those fingers went in and out slow then a little faster. She’s feeling all good and her man thinks he’s doing a hell of a job. Then this hand goes fast and she starts cumming but she can’t moan or move which made it feel even better. After she was done. The fingers slipped out. She looked around but had no idea who it was. She was dripping.

*Campsite. She was camping with her family, husband and kids. She needed to pee and it was late. There were no lights in the bathrooms so she had to feel her way around and use the moonlight coming through the windows. She heard someone walk in and the girl said is anyone in here? She answered yes. The other girl said okay, just making sure I’m in the girls bathroom haha. She was like ‘okay’ to herself and tried to hurry up. She came out of the stall and the other girl was standing there. Kinda scared her but then the other girl says I’m not going to hurt you. Then she leans in to kiss her all of a sudden. She freaked out and said look I’m not gay, I have a husband and kids waiting on me. She said you don’t have to be gay to let me play. She thought ‘what’ to herself. Then the other girl leaned in and kissed her neck and she let her and thought to herself what the hell am I doing? But she couldn’t walk off lol. That girl leaned in to kiss her again and she kissed back. She thought to herself, well no one will know and it might be fun. They were kissing and touching and the other girl puts her hand down her pants and then just pulls them down. She starts fingering her while kissing her, then gets on her knees and kisses her pussy. She was smiling and thinking this is fun hmmm. I’ve never been with a girl and this feels good. Then she felt the other girls tongue flicking on her pussy while being fingered. She was leaned up against the wall with her head back, eyes closed, enjoying the moment. After a few minutes, the other girl stands up and kisses her again and says thanks for letting me taste you, you are delicious. They kissed a bit more then the other girl says I gotta go before they come looking for me lol. I hope we hook up again before either of us leave….and they did.

Hope y’all enjoyed that lol. I think this stuff up all the time. I need to start making books out of this shit. Hope everyone has a good night. Love ya!

Love, Lori

 

 

 

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Good morning everybody! My little ebook is published now on Amazon. It has a lot of stuff you have read but I added one that was very hard to do and it is about a very bad situation I went through when I was younger. 

I wrote it because for one it helps me to let it out and I’m hoping it will help others do the same. It does still affect me but not to the point of going crazy, it just hurts. It’s not a very long story simply because I couldn’t keep going because well it hurt to write what I did write. But it has helped me though. Hopefully I can continue to keep letting it out. You don’t have to tell me your story, just tell someone somewhere and let it out and cry it out. Move on with your life knowing your stronger because it didn’t kill you and it didn’t overcome you! Don’t be a victim anymore. Be a victor! 

I have decide as well to stop writing and ranting about all my heartaches. I’ve done let it out so now I want to move on with my life and enjoy life to the fullest. I no longer want to be a victim to any of the hell ive been through. It only gives those that done me wrong satisfaction that they made me miserable. I refuse to be miserable any longer. I will do everything in my power to walk away from it. 

Let it out! 

Cry it out!

Move on!

Enjoy life and be the happiest you can be!!

Love you people following me, y’all are awesome! Thank you so much! 

Love, Lori

I’m Still Awake Ugh

Hey, its me lol. I’m still awake, can’t sleep and I gotta be at work in like four hours. So much for feeling better….Boom I got all pissed off and aggravated at some shit and now I’m paying for it. Writing in that ebook kinda brought back bad memories and I got all fucking man hating again. I mean the men that have entered my life so far…ALL have done me wrong! Why wouldn’t I be pissed? Can’t blame me? I’m not lesbian enough to have a woman, hell I’d probably kill a female cause we gonna act the same ugh. I don’t even want a relationship anymore. The more I think about it the more I despise it.

I so want to just pack my bags and go, I swear. I don’t even remotely want to go to that damn job anymore. It sucks, the pay ain’t great for the work I have to do. And management don’t know their ass from a hole in the ground. I’ve been busting my butt trying to work online and its going so slow. That is how I intend on making money while I travel so I will not give up because its what I want. I sit in front of this computer working at it and then other times I’m writing. Its so hard but I know it will be worth it soon.

I’m going to leave my house and cut off the bills that I can. Give my stuff to my boys and only taking what I have to have. Putting my truck in storage because its on its last leg anyway. I’m going to get one of those RV vans, they don’t require a cdl and they have everything in them I need. I can work online while I’m out there and doing what I’ve dreamed of for so long before its too late. I’ve put it off because of a man, I’ve put a lot of stuff off because of men. I ain’t no more. If somebody wants me they’ll have to fucking prove it before I’ll give up something for myself again. Like I keep saying, ‘I ain’t no queen, but I’m a damn good woman who keeps getting disrespected’. So why should I even begin thinking about a relationship? Fuck that. Yes I’m angry in case you ain’t noticed lol. I know shit and I’m not stupid and I don’t like being lied to. I also spoke to one of my ex’s today, we got along thankfully. We talked about my purple hair lol and he thought it fit me well. And he was asking if I was ok…not what I expected to hear tho.

I know some blogs are like informative shit, but this is my blog and I’ll use it to rant if I want to haha. It’s my outlet and I’m gonna use it. I promise I’m going to do more of them dirty blogs. I’ve just been so focused on the other stuff I can’t come up with a hot story. Maybe I’ll make some new ‘sexual desires’ posts out there on the road lol. Fucking in an RV…heehee. I do believe that once I can get out of here and on the road I’ll be able to really discover who I am and really be able to write some really good shit. I think it is the best thing for me, to leave. I will be here for my sons when I’m needed, they know that. For my close facebook buddies, my cell phone number is in my info on facebook. I’ll still be on facebook but y’all can have my number, I don’t care. Just no dick pics and trying to hook up tho. I know it probably sounds like I’m leaving tomorrow but that’s how I think, that’s how I stay positive and keep myself working at it. You never know, I could actually win the money, inherit it somehow or anything. So I make sure I’m ready. My boys and my girlfriend knows I’m serious and they know at any given moment I’m gonna pack my bags. They know me better than anybody does.

You ever think that we all just think we have to be with somebody because that’s how the world portrays it like models make women think they have to look like that? I’m serious. I know I’m about as faithful as it gets but even I’m sick of the games AND being faithful. I’ve considered just fucking whatever I want and making them leave, no attachments whatsoever. Just hit it and quit it. No that’s not me but hell I’m just as sick of being hurt as the next person is. I’m human, I’m not a damn robot. I can’t do it anymore. Giving my all to somebody and they just fuck whoever they want regardless of what it does to me. I’m seriously done, done with trying. I can’t make nobody be faithful so I’ll just stay single and fuck whoever when I need it. I’ve wrote post after post about being faithful and I’m sick of it myself. I’m changing and getting to the point where I just don’t give a damn anymore about the ‘Perfect’ guy. He don’t exist. So why should I be the way I am for someone that doesn’t exist. I really am changing though. I’ve gained a lot of ‘I don’t give a fucks’ about a lot of stuff and a lot of people lately. No this is not depression or sadness talking, this is me being fed the fuck up! It’s to the point where shit don’t even make me angry, I’m just like oh well whatever, fuck it.

This work day is going to suck bad. I hope I can stay awake later when it hits because its gonna. I probably need some of you talking to me throughout the day to keep me awake lol. What really got me back out of bed was laying there alone and realizing how long I’ve been doing it. I crave that man that don’t exist, I can’t help it. But honestly I think being alone is better than dealing with all the bullshit from being cheated on. Hell I was accused all the time and I never done nothing. I had to open everything on my phone, open the hidden pictures folder, facebook messenger, everything, vehicle looked through,blah blah. I was innocent. And I didn’t deserve it and I still don’t.

Does anybody hear me? Does anybody understand what I’m writing about? Does anybody else hurt or get hurt a lot? What about only finding players? Have you honestly found someone who is actually faithful? Does anybody feel as empty as I do? Anybody fall for somebody’s bullshit when you thought they were not lying to you?

I think that I’m going to stop writing about the pain and being hurt all the time. I believe I’ve said all I need to say about it all anyway. Now its just going to go in circles if it ain’t already. No matter what I say or do, people ain’t gonna change for me or nobody else. They’re gonna do what they do regardless of how me or y’all feel. Only they can change themselves. But I will say that when these people are done playing the field, people like me will either be taken or will refuse to be taken. And they will have to settle for a hoe or be alone because they done fucked up and let a good one slip out of their hand for nothing but for a quick fuck that is only a number added to their belt…for what? That number ain’t gonna be shit when they alone. I’m speaking in general, not attacking nobody, its just this shit pisses me off and its all I’ve ever dealt with. This anger is coming from being alone because of cheaters. I’m sitting here alone and hurt and angry for nothing. All because of a piece of pussy that don’t mean shit to them and never will. I shouldn’t be alone, I didn’t do nothing wrong. I don’t deserve it.

I think if I could understand what the big deal/obsession with everybody fucking everything that moves shit, that maybe I wouldn’t be in this shape. Whatever, I think I’m just gonna be like them, fuck it. Ain’t doing me any good sitting around waiting and holding out for somebody that I’ll probably never find anyhow.

Thanks for reading my rant. I’m not going to apologize because its how I feel. Maybe someday somebody will read this stuff and be able to give me some answers, who knows. I’m going to go finish my cupcakes and slowly get ready for work,fucking yay lol.

TTYL, Hope y’all have a good day!

Love, Lori

 

I’m Feeling Better-Today Anyway:)

I gotta say today is better. I can literally feel that I’m getting better everyday. That’s not to say I won’t have a bad day or a bad few moments. I went out today and just walked around stores mostly. I struck up conversations with strangers, which I haven’t done in forever. Feels good. My hair is getting me some looks haha. I’m getting double checked by guys, I love it! I was checking out at walmart and the guy in front of me literally looked back at me like 10 times, he looked me up and down and I started laughing haha. Feels good to be noticed even if its the purple hair getting their attention. It’s always nice to be admired, it makes you feel better about yourself.

One thing I do when I feel better is cook and I’m cooking today! Making me some beer battered beef stew and cupcakes.Yum! Only thing that sucks about cooking now is I’m the only one eating it so I have to learn to cook for one now. But ya know being single ain’t so bad. I mean I can do whatever I want, go wherever I want, clean when I feel like it. And I can clean and cook with tank top and panties on and turn my music up loud and dance up a storm and nobody to stop me haha!!!! I may be loving it too much!

Now I’m not saying I don’t want a man in my life, I mean I kinda have one y’all know that”my guy”. But I don’t have one that’s here with me living life with me. But until then I’ll be alright. It does suck on some things not having a man around. Fixing shit by myself, and yard work and shit, and nobody to attack at any moment when I wanna just fuck. That part sucks. But oh well. Someday. I know from the messages I get that y’all are highly interested in me and my guy, which is awesome! We are good together. We get along great. We’re not a couple couple as to say. But even if I end up with someone later, I will never forget him and I will never stop talking to him because he has impacted me and I think of him as my buddy and nobody can change that. I hope I have impacted him as well, I hope that I stand out from any other woman, because he does in my eyes. Everything I’ve been through lately, he’s the only man that’s been there for me to help me and not just sex. There wasn’t any other man to step up and do the things he did when he didn’t even have to. I think highly of him and I’d kick somebody’s ass if they spoke of him badly. He is an awesome person and no one has ever made me feel like he does. If I got with another, y’all know I can’t cheat so we would have to stop. But I would miss the fuck out of him. 😦

Now I can’t give info on marriages obviously since mine ended. But I can say that when I love, I love hard. Even the men I’ve been with, regardless of what they did, I didn’t cheat. I remained faithful period. I think that I cheated myself in the long run. I’m not holding myself back for nobody. What’s meant to be will be. I’m not searching for anyone but I’m not closing my eyes either. I’m not a whore so to speak, I can get laid when I want it. I’m a woman ya know, and there’s guys waiting at the drop of a hat for me to go out with them. But at the moment I just don’t want to simply because I don’t want all the hassle from it, all that relationship shit. I’d rather go hang out with the girls at a club or something. I just need to be me for awhile if you understand . Like I said my eyes are open because if there is someone meant for me I don’t want to pass him by but I’m not jumping up and down over every guy that’s interested in me.

I’m going to write it out here what I want in a man or want from a man. Just something fun to do lol. These may be far fetched or just me dreaming. But I definitely want a faithful man without a doubt, that is by far the number one thing for me. If he ain’t happy with everything I can offer and I have a lot to offer, then he shouldn’t even bother. He don’t have to know how to cook. I don’t want a sloppy nasty man that can’t clean or keep himself up. I’m big on beards, sorry he’s gotta have one and hopefully some grey in it! Β He has to work..period. Don’t want no lazy man. Someone that’s into most but not all (that’s ok) of stuff I’m into. Likes kissing me a lot. Brushes his hand on my face kinda man. Can make me feel better by just pulling me close and giving me those eyes lol. Showers with me and well you know heehee. Likes cuddling A LOT. Brings me gifts for no reason at all, doesn’t have to be expensive, I’m a simple girl. Makes making love feel like the first time. Shows me he enjoys me and loves me, not just by saying it. Doesn’t stop me from doing the things I enjoy, rather gets involved in some. I don’t drink or do drugs so I can’t deal with that. Occasional drinking is fine, but an alcoholic is out. If weed is ever legalized…I will smoke again, he’s gotta be okay with that if it ever happens lol, I would allow some exchange for me smoking for him to do something. If I’m sick and not feeling good..take care of me. Don’t just say I’m sorry and can’t even hand me a tissue or go get what I need. I want to fell like I’m his girl, he’s baby. His eyes are ONLY on me, none of this social media shit liking a bunch of girls pics and friending them. No secrets, no talking to others behind my back. Goes out of his way for me, because I will always. This list can go on and on. I’m just gonna stop here lol. Its just some of what I’d like to have all the time. And never made to feel like I can’t talk to him about anything.

I really don’t understand why the others did what they did. I’m not better than anyone but I think I have a lot to offer for a man but for some reason I’m just not enough……

I swear y’all I’m trying to get that ebook finished. Like I said one of the stories is hard to write. It was some serious shit I went through so its taking a little longer than I thought to write. I have all the blog posts already put in and the other pages…title, introduction, in conclusion pages and stuff. Its just getting that one finished.

As soon as I do get done I will send a link to my facebook wall so y’all can get to it. Have a good night and hopefully I’ll get this done tonight. πŸ™‚

Love , Lori