Ok so I seen a meme on my facebook wall today & I cannot stop pondering on it. This is the meme below.

Read it, I mean really read it. The way I’m being treated by a few certain people & applying those words to them really has me baffled.

So those that think I’m a liar, a gossiper, a cheater, & a just no good person reflects who they are? That explains a lot to me. Everything they’re accusing me of is actually what they’re guilty of. Hmm. Says a lot. And what’s sad is I can see all of that in them.

Sorry for the grouchiness but peoples attitudes toward me & how they treat me like shit is starting to become annoying. I know who I am, I know my worth as a woman, a human being. I may not be rich or famous, or have a brickhouse body, or have a college degree, but baby I’m everything the right man would love to have or a friend & that’s the truth.

So you guys, I push mowed my yard today & hopefully for the last time this season, it kicked my ass! Lol. While I was mowing I told myself I am never doing this again, I will own a riding mower by the next season.

I am progressing in bettering my life. It has been a slow start but everything will work out. Ain’t nobody got my back like I do!

Everybody has dreams & one of mine is to NEVER work in a manufacturing plant again. I can’t wait & won’t stop working for my dreams until I get them. One of them is to roll out of bed, grab my coffee & open up my blog or my ebook site & write. Not rush & dread & waste my life away working at dead end jobs. And obviously my next dream is to travel…..can’t wait!

Because I’m single I guess I also dream of finding a man that will love me for me & ONLY me. It would be nice to not have to sleep alone anymore & to have someone to share my crazy life with.

I’ve been on this kick lately where I’m sick to death of being lied to. What people say & do don’t add up & I’m fed up with it. And what kills me is I have messages & stuff where it’s obvious I’m lied to by several. Just tired of it. Just because I don’t lie & I’m loyal means nothing to some. They don’t give a shit & I’m going to start returning the favor as well…not giving a shit.

Ok before y’all think I’m all pissy, I’m not really. I’m beyond that now so it’s actually more dangerous haha. It’s just a person can only take so much before they snap lol.

Y’all have a good day!



Private Photo Session

Holly had recently broke up with her boyfriend. The break up was pretty rough on her. To say the least she wasn’t his only girlfriend. The whole thing made her feel bad about herself inside and out. Holly had been pretty down about it all and her bff suggested for her to do a private photo session with a contact she uses for her brides to be. Holly’s friend runs a wedding planning business.

Holly asked her friend, how is that supposed to help me? Her friend told her to just trust her and that she would set it up for her. Holly had no idea what her friend was up to. No idea!

A couple of days went by and Holly’s friend text messaged her the time and date of the photo session which was the next day at 1pm. Holly thought to herself that this was crazy and ridiculous. Later that night Holly went through her clothes looking for something to wear for the pictures having no idea she wasn’t going to need any clothing.

The next day, Holly ran some errands before the photo session since she was off work. She had brought some outfits with her to wear. When she arrived she was a bit nervous because she’d never had professional pictures done before. She turned off her car and grabbed her bag with the outfits and headed inside.

When she entered she couldn’t help but notice how romantic the place smelled. She wanted to know what that scent was. Her thoughts were interrupted by a very nice looking man who welcomed her and said you must be Holly. She said yes, yes I’m Holly with her shaky voice. He told her there’s no need to be nervous and my name is Mike. Mike pointed the way towards the studio and said right this way beautiful. Holly thought…beautiful? What? And laughed to herself.

When she entered the studio it felt strange like there was some vibes she wasn’t sure of. Mike assured her everything is going to go just fine. He took her bags and sat them aside. Holly was pointing at her bags and said my outfits are in there, shouldn’t I get them out? Mike smiled and said no sweetheart I have that covered. He asked her if she has ever posed nude before and Holly gasped. She said no and I don’t plan on it. Mike stood in front of her and took her hands, looked her in the eyes and said there’s no one here but me and you can relax. Holly told him her friend didn’t say anything about nude photos. He smiled and said I know, she told me you would try to run lol. Holly halfway laughed.

Mike said I’ve taken 100’s of nude photos along with my regular work. But darling you are the most beautiful woman I’ve ever laid eyes. I’ve seen a lot of women come in here but you are different. You’re so beautiful in a way that it’s taking my breath. Holly was speechless. No one has ever spoke to her like that, she don’t know how to take it. She was so attracted to him and he seemed to feel the same way. Holly asked him if he talks to all the women that come in here like that and he said no baby girl I sure don’t, just you because you have a beautiful soul and body. Holly told him you don’t even know me how can you know? Mike told her he could sense it.

Mike placed Holly in front of the camera standing on what looks like sheets and they were hanging all behind her too. She thought it kinda feels nice and exciting. Mike stood behind the camera and started taking pictures. Holly said I’m not ready. Mike said just be you and slowly remove one article of clothing at a time. Holly was speechless and freaked out a bit but for some reason she really wanted to do it. It was exciting and erotic. She kicked off her shoes and started unbuttoning her shirt. Mike was absolutely attracted to this woman and was just as excited and nervous but he wouldn’t let her see it.

She pulled her shirt off her shoulders and let it drop to the floor, Mike swallowed hard. He told her to just sway or twirl around to the music that was playing in the background. Holly slightly swayed her hips and turned around to unzip her skirt and let it drop to the floor. Mike raised up and looked over the camera at her, he wanted her so badly. He got back in position before she turned around. Holly standing there in her bra and panties with her heart pounding as she’s unhooking her bra. It too drops to the floor and Mike’s loosing it behind the camera. Holly turned around and slowly swayed her hips as she slowly pulled her panties down bending all the way down to remove them. She raised up and looked towards the camera as she turned to face him forward then removed the clip from her beautiful long hair that fell so seductively. Mike got a drink of water and thought damn and knew he had to be against this woman. He put the camera on record and walked up to her. Holly standing there naked and nervous she asks what are you doing? Mike caressed the side of her face and leaned in to kiss her, she kissed back.

They kissed like they’ve known each other all along. Holly was pulling at his clothes trying to take them off. Both naked Mike kisses her neck and her breasts, sucking on them gently. Kisses down her stomach and kisses her inner thighs while caressing her and rubbing her legs. He begins licking her pussy, running his tongue up and down. Flicking her clit with his tongue and sucking on it with a little pressure. Sliding his tongue inside of her pussy tasting her and she’s so wet, he couldn’t get enough.

Mike walks behind her pulling her hair aside kissing on the back of her neck and she could feel his body touching her from behind. He placed one hand on her upper back bending her over. He kneels down and licks her pussy from behind and stroking his tongue in and out of her, loving the taste and feel of her. He kisses her ass all over and starts flicking his tongue on her asshole, licking there while fingering her pussy. Holly was barely able to hold herself up, no one has ever licked on her like that before and she loved it and didn’t want him to stop.

Both on the floor. Kissing and touching. Holly is slowly sucking on his dick…deep throating him. Mike lays back enjoying how good she was making him feel. Slowly sucking back to the tip allowing her lips to run with the feel of his dick to the head and she starts kissing her way back to his lips.

While kissing his neck she’s rubbing her wet pussy on his dick, he’s so hard. He’s quietly moaning. She kisses her way back to his dick, sucking harder and licking and sucking on his nuts. She was curious, never done it before but she got lower and started licking below his nuts and he was enjoying it. She kept licking til she reached his ass and he seemed to love that too.

Mike laid her down and put the head of his dick in her pussy, in and out slowly to tease her. He laid on her kissing her as he slid all the way inside her pussy causing them both to moan. Mike thought he might pass out because she felt unbelievably good. Faster and faster, Holly was already cumming, sounds of her really wet pussy while he fucked her was hot. He turned her over and pounded her doggy style causing her to scream.

While still inside of her he sits back and pulls her on top of him riding him backwards. He grabs her ass and lifts her, she lifts herself up a bit and they both pound as hard as they could until they both cummed together, he was covered in her cum where her pussy squirted all over him. Holly was rubbing her cum on his nuts right after he finished while he was rubbing her back. They definitely fell asleep quickly after for a good long nap.

Holly had never experienced such pleasure before nor treated like she was a beautiful queen. It brought a whole other side of her out that she didn’t know existed. She loved it. She wanted more.

They ended up being a couple, they were perfect for each other in so many ways, they just clicked. But they do however have their first video he recorded of them in a safe place to cherish of that erotic day in the studio.



It’s sad when you understand & see just how much you don’t mean to people like you thought you did. When you’ve been blindsided ya know. Hard times are not the only times you see how much you mean to others. Some people are sneaky & evil, & don’t care one bit about you personally. They may act it when the need of you arises but more than likely, they don’t give you a single thought. Those kinds of people are the worst, it takes time to see their true self sometimes. These are people you’ve known for years or lived with, etc.

Truths come out eventually & when they do you sometimes don’t know just exactly how to take it. You got two choices, deal or leave them be. The world is full of so many fake people these days it’ll make you sick. It’s not how it was when I was growing up, people actually gave a damn about you & would treat you accordingly. Nowadays honesty, faithfulness & someones word doesn’t mean shit. Some of us are mature enough to hold onto those things we were taught & actually apply them to our lives as well as to others lives.

I have sat & watched people closely lately. I even check into them, like their conversations, their social media, listening to what they say or do, etc. It’s really…I don’t know…pathetic I guess?…at how just ridiculously easy people are to read & they can’t stand it when you call them out on anything either. It absolutely pisses some off. Oh well, sorry I will call people out anyone anymore, I don’t have time nor the heart to deal with fake ass people who’s only intentions are to use, hurt, or destroy you.

Everybody has something to hide from others in their life whether it’s something you’ve outgrown from when you was raising hell at a younger age, or something you still do, or something bad that happened to you. Skeletons as you will… But if the type of person they are involves hurting or mistreating others in any way, they are the lowest scums period.

Who stops to help someone on the side of the road anymore? I can say I honestly don’t simply because people are not trust worthy. How am I to know it isn’t another case of crooked people itching to kill me just to rob me or steal my ride? Me being female I feel it’s best for my own safety to not stop anymore & that’s sad because I want to but I can’t. I do however say a prayer as I go by but that’s all I can do. But that’s how bad people have become today, you don’t know who’s what anymore. I used to stop & give people rides that were walking if they were going semi my way, but I don’t dare do that now.

What about people pulling together for one family in need? You don’t see or hear much about that happening anymore. It’s once in a blue moon that I hear anything like that but it is rare.

Heads turn when someone needs help whether they need a helping hand or $5.

What about relationships? I think the only ones that are real are the ones that are old & have been together some 30-50 odd years. People get married & they’re not even in love, it’s like they want the attention or simply don’t want to be alone. Neither are good for each other nor faithful. ‘People are together who are not in love & those that are in love are apart for selfish reasons’.

I don’t think I want to be in a serious relationship again, it scares the hell out of me. It really does. For me, it’s faithfulness. Not one has been truly faithful to me & I don’t intend to find another one, just saying. ‘If you are a secret you are not the only one they’re messing with’…remember that, others are being kept a secret as well. Don’t be fooled.

I’ll be honest, I don’t have but a couple of things about me that I hide from everyone. It’s my business & I don’t feel it’s necessary for anyone to know. I’m slowly getting to the point where I don’t like sharing anything about me to most people. I’m not using anyone or hurting anyone, nothing like that, it’s just personal shit. But that doesn’t make me act like the typical fake ass people today. I’m as real as I can be. I don’t have an image to maintain, I’m me & I don’t give a shit what others think. The only thing that bothers me is being told or showed I’m cared about then finding out it’s a put on, a lie or finding out that everybody gets the same special treatment as you when you believed it was just you. That pisses me off to no end & that’s why I’ve let a lot of people go.

Truths suck sometimes but it’s better than being deceived.

Will we ever get back to the way it used to be? Probably not.



Good Morning

Some days you wake up and realize how blessed you are. Sometimes through the heavy fog of troubles we tend to forget how blessed we are or our attention is solely focused on troubles.

Removing toxic people out of our lives is so refreshing. I didn’t realize just how peaceful it would be. I’m not going to keep talking about the crap I’ve been dealing with at my job but I wanted to say this: Found out people are not believing for one second that I started any rumors about this girl. They know she’s lying and they know how she is (people see it for themselves) and know she’s nothing but trouble. I remained calm through it and I still am, I’m not a child and I refuse to contribute to her or anyone else’s lies or attitudes. I know who I am and I don’t need attention from tons of people to prove my worth. Some women think they’re untouchable on their high horse but I got news for you…evil doesn’t win…ever. How you treat others will always come back on you, and even worse than what you dished out to someone.

Anyway, that’s absolutely enough of wasting my time on that topic. I just wanted to end it by sharing that if you’re a true hearted person and you remain true, you will come out on top and triumph over the evil ones that come against you. People know and can sense who’s true or not.

I’m going to try and take some new pictures of something today or tomorrow for my new blog. I’ve always loved taking pictures as a hobby. I have tons of them lol.

All I can think right now is just how much of a relief it is not having to deal with toxic people, I’m so relaxed!

I hope y’all have a wonderful day! Remember……Removing toxic people=Happiness!

Love, Lori


I really should be sleeping instead of writing. My heart is heavy and there’s nothing I can do about it except to just let it go. I hate losing people but I really hate losing someone based on rumors and never really discussing the actual problems. We clicked but people said shit to us both and those rumors ruined our friendship. Lesson learned I reckon, don’t listen to gossipers huh? I tend to want to act on social media like say what I’m feeling but a really good friend of mine keeps me in check on that. It’s drama and I despise drama. It’s just when I get hurt I either shut down or go all out mouthing, there is no in between.

I’ve been sitting here on my bed staring at the walls and just thinking, thinking hard. Thinking about how stuff has caused me to lose myself yet again. I cried, I cried hard because that isn’t me to be so bitter (a word I hate) or so fucking unhappy all the time. I’m trying to speak as adult like as I can because the childish drama stuff is over and it’s done. I no longer wish to be what it tried to make me out to be, a boring, bitter, rude ass bitch. Problems didn’t exactly take full control of my life but they were well on their way. I listened and reread my good friends messages over and over and also some girlfriends messages as well. I do take things a bit to serious I guess and some will never understand why I do. It’s not right for me to take things like that but I have just reasons to. I’m human and I’m a female (which fucks me up emotionally everyday lol). I tend to wear my heart on my shoulder along with my problems and they eat at me until I snap my shit.

I can’t force anyone to believe I’m honest or even faithful and vice versa. All I know is to just keep being myself…my goofy fun loving self…and not worry who comes and goes. If they leave, well it’s gonna hurt but I can’t make them stay. The only way to prove my honesty and faithfulness and worth is to just be Lori.

I kinda lost sight of working on my goals and building my empire so to speak. I think a good cry done me some good, I really do. I don’t cry all the time like I used to, it’s rare now. I’ll tear up ever now and then but not full blown laying in the floor like a baby. But I want to get back on track with everything I’ve been working on. While I was thinking I realized I hadn’t even wrote anything to do with the sexual stories lol. I’m not even sure if I will continue those actually, brings in a lot of negativity from males and it’s irritating.

But besides all that I’m 41 and I’m full of life. People used to ask me, ‘Are you sure you’re in your forties?’ Haha. I love that. I don’t do anything most people my age do. Hell I have a killer sound system in my pickup truck that young ones would have and I will crank it up loud and be bumping all day lol. I don’t have a set bedtime or even a routine, I just do whatever I feel basically. Yes I’m single-ish, but one thing I will stand for is I won’t sleep around, the guilt would eat me alive and I’d say you could probably see the guilt on my face lol. There’s some nights all I do is dance around in the kitchen putting on my own little concert and show. I love being ‘that’ me and I’m happier as well.

Well I need sleep, I gotta work in the am. I just needed to write out what I’m feeling, I was tossing and turning. Good night y’all.

Love, Lori 

New Start..I think yes!

You know what? A new start sounds like a great damn idea. I’m serious. I’m so tired of the same ole thing. Not real sure what all I’m going to do but I’m going to reach out and grab it. Blogging is great, I love it. I want more exciting adventurous things going on in my life too. The same ole boring job with awful people is well..enough. I’m over it. I need true people in my life as well.

I ain’t getting any younger. My heart is restless and wants to run wild.

My goal is to write, just write and travel. I have such a passion for it. Just visiting local places I get a slight rush from it. From lakes to mountains or even parks I get such enjoyment from being there taking it all in. Just watch, one day I’ll disappear off in my dream to run wild and travel. Can’t wait.

It’s getting closer for my grandson to be born and I’m just so excited about him! Happy for my son and his wife too. Me and my sons have our little quirks like anybody but I love them with all my heart and would die to save them. They are my life.

A few of you might have seen a post I put up earlier but it’s been removed. I wrote about the junk and lies going on about me at my job. I just didn’t want that trash on my blog. I’m innocent so I don’t care what people say, I know the truth and I even know who the ‘firestarter’ is but I’m not a rat so I’ll never tell. Unless that person steps up and adults up I guess that means I have to take the rap for her huh?…Damn. I’m supposedly spreading rumors and lying about one certain girl which isn’t true. She causes her drama on her own and gets upset when people react negatively, then people start talking and so on, you know how it goes. Rumors. I’m being blasted on facebook right now as a liar and saying I talk trash about her to the whole company. She even says I’m doing it because I’m jealous of her…..hahahaha!!! Oh my damn I laughed my ass off when I read that, had to stop myself from commenting with laughing emojis! Lol. 😂🤣!!! I’m not real sure just what I’m supposed to be jealous of lol. I wouldn’t want her life, why would I? I guess that’s what they say when they ain’t got much of nothing else to say huh? Lol. I love myself and I love my own crazy life, I have two awesome sons and a few great ‘real’ friends outside of work. I don’t want someone else’s dull life instead haha and damn sure don’t want people looking at me and talking about me like they do her. Hoping for a job elsewhere. I’ve never seen such nonsense at any job like I have with this one.

Anyway that’s enough of talk about the little childrens corner at work lol. So pathetic 🙄.

I’m getting up early this morning (it’s after midnight already lol), and I’m going for a good run after exercising. Then I’ll hit the shower and do some cleaning at home. Probably write or read the rest of the day…probably be a nap in there somewhere. Why am I telling you about my day?….I have no idea lol. I’ll blame it on being sleepy.

Okay I’m out, I done dozed off and dropped my phone lol.

Love ya, Lori

Good afternoon!

My last day off before a long weekend to work at a miserable job. I guess it’s a job, thankful I’m employed but that is it….

I’m being my weird self today. Nothing on in the house, just listening to natures music and staring out the window at the trees lol. It’s relaxing in a sense. Better than bs.

I am loving blogging! One of the best things I’ve gotten into. Eases my mind sometimes and keeps me from going crazy on some people bahahaha.

I started a photo journal blog last night. I think I’m going to really like that one too. I love taking pictures!

Well that’s about all I had to say lol. Just trying to take it easy today and relax.

From my last post….if your’re feeling like me and feel unwanted, unattractive, etc. Just take a deep breathe and say ‘fuck that‘ and get your mind off of it. No one deserves to feel so damn unwanted.

Ttyl!….. Lori