Stone_Heart 

Hey Y’all. Yes here I am in one of my moods…writing & I said I would not do that anymore but I have no one to talk to really. If I don’t know people good enough I can’t talk about my junk. I still won’t really say what all is going on, on here either.

I talked about it before in one of my other posts about hardening my heart. Well I have somewhat but not enough. People have been mean to me today….several times….by several different people. And you know what sucks about it? I haven’t done a damn thing wrong to none of them to get the disrespect I received today. I’m not rude to no one until they’re rude to me. I do no one wrong in any way shape, form, or fashion. I don’t make fun of people. I try not to bother anyone that don’t won’t nothing to do with me if they make me feel that way. I don’t understand it though, why people push me away. I think I’m a fairly good person to be honest. My opinion is I’m probably too damn good for the assholes I deal with & they can’t handle me. People tell me all I pick is horrible people but I don’t know I’ve got some pretty good friends in my life right now, not many but a few I wouldn’t trade for nothing. I know some are bad choices though.

I was literally made fun of today by a couple of people. They made fun of how my body looks & it hurt me really bad. Really rude comments were made & it made me cry. And a couple of other people just chose to flat out ignore me, which hurts as well. I don’t know why, whatever. It’s funny how in one day I’m tossed away like a piece of trash.

And all that is why I want to just have a stone heart so I can’t feel anymore damn pain. I don’t wanna feel. I don’t wanna get attached, I just wanna disappear sometimes.

Not only do I have these financial problems from hell & dealing with being alone all the time, I now have these comments & mean, rude ass people going through my head. I’m already insecure about my body anyways and none of the above helps, just makes it worse. I don’t even wanna wear my normal skimpy ass clothes. I went and looked through my closet for clothes that cover me up better. I can’t find none that fit, they’re all my fat clothes I’ve kept in case I gain my weight back. I normally don’t give a fuck what people think but I’m an emotional wreck right now and it really bothers me.

Also I keep having panic attacks. I had one earlier, it wasn’t as bad but they suck ass. I feel like I’m spinning out of control or something or maybe everything seems worse because I have to deal with so much by my damn self. Those that have said they’ll do this or that for me…ain’t done shit! Just lies. And how can people make other people feel one way then treat them like shit?

I don’t know how long it will take me to learn what I’m studying for but once it’s complete..I’m outta here. I’m fucking leaving & letting my house go & putting my junk in storage. So, those that don’t want me around will win, I’m leaving. It’s not my loss for people pushing me away…it’s their damn loss, one day they’ll miss my ass when they can’t find somebody to run the fuck all over. Yea, I’m kinda mad & hurt all at the same time. Not to mention stressed the hell out. I can’t buy groceries or get rent caught up or nothing. That’s why I made that gofundme account. I’m still embarrassed of it though lol. I can’t help it.

Anyway I’m gonna get back to watching my ‘Orange is the new black’ show. Hopefully it will get my mind off of shit & people. Y’all have a good night.

Love ya, Lori

 

Such a quite Day 😊

Hi everybody! How are y’all doing …hmmm?? Lol. I’m bored to death here. I wish I was able to have worked today instead of sitting here. 

I woke up around 5:30 this morning and I literally stayed in bed til 1:30. I napped here n there the whole time. I just didn’t see no reason to get up lol. It’s funny or lazy, however you wanna look at it but truth is I simply just didn’t want face the day. I don’t do it as much as I was but I have days where I just wanna hide somewhere. It’s hard to be alone and even harder trying to learn to cope with it and find yourself. Finding your own way to live and deal with life. I’m sure I’m not the only one, I know there’s several of my followers in the same boat. We seem to understand each other fully where as others can only sympathize with us. It’s a rough life but we’ll make it even though it don’t look like it, I continually hope so anyway. 

Y’all know I’ve mentioned time n time again I’m having financial problems. And I’m very independent and hate asking for help but I’ve come to the deciding factor that I have no choice. I made a gofundme account. It took me forever to do it because I would close it out and just say well if I worked 3 jobs for this amount of time I wouldn’t have to do that……y’all I can’t work 3 jobs lol. I haven’t shared it Facebook even though it keeps telling me to, I’m embarrassed I really am. It’s a pride thing and accepting defeat…..Ugh. Here’s the link if you wanna check it out or share it with your friends. I’d appreciate it a lot.   https://www.gofundme.com/3wj8syw

I’m now in the tub haha, might be here for another hour. Probably won’t get much of nothing done today. I thought how or what could I sell today but I ain’t got nothing but a deep freezer and nobody will buy it so I guess I’m stuck with it lol. Maybe one day I’ll get rich and fill it up😁. 

I want to write another addition to the Ms.Badass later if I don’t get to damn lazy lol. I seriously thought about making it into a book. I’d have to improve what I’ve already wrote and add a bunch more scenes to it. It would be a good book I think. Definitely erotic 😉. Like I’ve said before, if it don’t tear me all to hell I won’t publish it on here. The more I get turned on by writing the stories the sexier they turn out. If I’m sad or mad they may end up with me killing some dude hahaha😂. 

I appreciate all the old & new followers, thanks so much! Love you people! 

Y’all have a great rest of the day! I’m going finish chilling in the tub Lol. 

Love, Lori 💋

Life Is Too Short 𗀂

Well good morning everyone! I hope your day is awesome. It’s my day off & I’m going  to look for a part time job. I know I’ve been a pretty negative person on here lately. It’s hard to stay positive when so much is thrown at you. I’m doing a little better..mentally & emotionally anyway. Finances still suck lol. But I’m working on that, I’m studying & working a full time job & looking for another part time job now. It’ll get better, it has to. 

Anyway I wanted to say that life is too short. I have nothing but time on my hands to sit & think. And when you really think about things it’s kinda scary but idk how to explain it really. We’re only here for a little while & time flies by. And so many of us including myself put up with people & situations that make us miserable. Why do we do that? Lol, who knows, I think it’s because we were taught from a young age to ‘wait’. To wait for everything to come your way, to wait for the perfect person to come into your life. Work a job for 10-20 years waiting for that right position. Blah blah blah! 

I’m done waiting! Idk about y’all but I ain’t getting any younger and I want to enjoy life. You can’t take nothing or no one with you when you die, so enjoy everything & everyone NOW.  

  • Enjoy that cup of coffee when you get up. Eat what you want.
  • Don’t make enough money? Figure something out.
  • Want to buy that vehicle or house? Make it work, do it. Why wait til your too old to care?
  • In an impossible relationship? Leave.
  • People around you that make you miserable? Get rid of them. 
  • Like your job but not the people? Tell them to stay away from you, why not? 
  • Wanna kiss that girl/guy you have your eye on? Do it, they might feel the same way. 
  • Wanna be with someone else? Do it. 
  • Wanna visit that place you dream of? Do it.
  • Wanna do something you’ve dreamed of all your life? Do it. 
  • Wanna fuck someone else? Um…Do it. 
  • Wanna smash that computer that pisses you off? Take a hammer to it-Do it. 
  • Take a walk, enjoy everything you see. 
  • Take a bath instead of a shower, relax. 
  • Can’t cook but wanna, learn. 
  • Don’t have the nerve to do nothing? Let go & just fucking do it! 
  • Whatever or whoever it is that makes you happy or makes your heart skip a beat….go for it! Life is way too short to sit back & just see if things pan out. Y’all know I’m right. 

I could make that list 3 pages long lol but I won’t. I’m serious though, have you ever stopped and thought about any of this? About how we’re programmed to think by the world? How we should do or act because that’s what everyone else does, an everyday boring ass routine. We’ve learned to just deal with shit that makes us unhappy instead of doing shit that makes us happy. I’m not saying go buck ass fucking wild & quit your jobs or marriages but if they ain’t working…. But I’m saying why not do something that makes us happy for a change? I’m just as sick of the every day bullshit as y’all are too. 

Just think about it, all of it for a moment. What could you change? Who makes you happy? Where would you like to be or go? Who would you rather be cuddled up to? Just think about for real. Life is short! Why be miserable? Don’t let money & people & situations change your thinking. 

Even if it seems impossible to you right now to change things….it’s not trust me. I’ve been there done that for many years so I know & I have made some major changes in my life over the last yearish. 

Well everybody I hope you have great day! And remember take a moment to just look at your life and take it all in….is any of it making you happy? 

Love ya!

Lori

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Hey I don’t have a story but I have those thoughts in my head lol…steamy ones! 

Sorry can’t help myself. When I’m alone and in the mood but nobody to satisfy me well, I start thinking things 😘. 

I do hope y’all had a great day today though!

Ok…..Morning Quicky 

She was in the shower & all lathered up with soap. She was rubbing her breasts & gently pinching her nipples. She put more soap on her fingers & rubbed it on her pussy so soft & gentle. Sliding her fingers up & down her pussy then slipping them inside of her….as she fingered herself faster & faster until almost climax, her boyfriend stepped in & grabbed her hand stopping her, leaving her shaking & wanting to cum so bad.

 She was so wet & her pussy was throbbing. Her boyfriend rinsed the soap off of her & got on his knees in front of her. Slowly licking her pussy lips then licking on & around her clit. As he started sucking on her clit she could barely stand. He cupped his mouth on her & moved all over her pussy sucking in wherever his mouth was like a vacuum cleaner. Putting his tongue inside her, tasting her juice, moving his tongue like a caterpillar in & out. She could no longer stand, she laid down on the tub floor & he just went with her never taking his mouth off of her. She was so delicious. 

The shower spraying on them, he pours soap all over her & rubs her all over making her so slippery. With her legs up he puts he dick inside of her soapy pussy…so wet & warm. As he enters her entirely he closes his eyes & lowers his head at how good she feels. Slowly stroking her pussy that is wrapped around his dick. He watches as he enters her pussy & pulls almost all the way back out then looks into her eyes & starts pounding her pussy. She is screaming with pleasure. 

He turns her over onto her knees & puts his dick inside her ass. Grabbing her hips as handles & pounds the fuck out of her ass, her nails were scratching the tub floor. They both climax to an extreme & then he cuddles her up & holds her, kissing her & tells her good morning baby, have a great day at work. Then leaves the shower after cleaning up & she just lays there caught up in the moment of all the pleasure she just received. 
💋Hope you enjoyed it! I did! 😜

Goodnight 

Lori

Good Evening 😘

Hi y’all! I’ve had a pretty good day so far. Back to work tomorrow but I’m starting to not mind it much, at least I’m around people for most of the day. 

My finances are in bad shape and so is some other areas of my life but I’m still kicking and I will not give up. Momma taught me to work hard, fight hard, love hard, and never give up on anything! But she wasn’t able to express how hard it was gonna be, I know now. 

I’m working hard at studying for something but I’m not gonna say what it is until I get it.  It’s just something I wanna try and I’ll make a lot more money at it. I’m a hell of a learner. 𗀔

I might be a loner right now. Some days it sucks ass, other days not so much. I do get to have adventures though which is nice. I do get to do whatever the fuck I want too and with who I want. Like last night after that spider being on me…😳😳…I couldn’t sleep. I was up and dancing at 2am haha. Woooo fuck it!❤️ Those are moments I’m loving like hell. I can be myself all I want. It’s just when days go by and I see no one it sucks. And it sucks when I go to bed…every night. I don’t even have to be cuddled up, just stick a finger in something just so I know ya near haha😂😂😂.  I’m sorry that was just not right to say….no I’m not sorry lol, that’s me being me. 

I am going to try to stay off Facebook and attempt to get some sleep tonight IF those damn creatures will leave me alone! 

Short n sweet 😍. Goodnight y’all!

Lori 

What A Woman Needs In The Bedroom

Whether married or single every woman has needs. Needs that have to be met. Yes men have needs as well but women are more complicated than some men. Like me for example, I need to feel wanted….all the time. Even being single I still need to feel it. Most people do. 

Not all women are the same, some just like the normal simple sex and love and that’s ok. But women like me need a lot more! 

I’m going to speak the rest referring to ‘myself’ because well it’s all what I like and want and need deeply. And I know there’s a lot of women who can agree with me on most of it if not all. 

A major quality is trustworthiness. Whether it’s a one night stand or a partner. If I can’t trust you, you will not get all that I have to offer nor will you get me tied up. There needs to be passion, an insane fire burning between us. Wanting each other so badly. 

I need romance, I never get it so I desire it like hell. Is it that hard to buy a fake rose or light a candle or something? Give an actual massage, slow oily massage that’s sexy. 

Undress me slowly, unwrap me like a present. Press your body to mine. Make me feel wanted, show me and tell me you love my body. I want to feel protected and like I’m all yours if only temporarily. 

Let me get close to you, don’t keep me at your arms length….don’t fear being yourself with me. 

Be confident in everything you’re doing to me and with me. It is a major turn on.  

Kiss me and kiss me a lot, slow and wet with lots of tongue. And kiss me like you mean it and that you’re into me. 

Do foreplay with me, do it longer than 5 minutes to just quick fuck me. 

Use eye contact like hell, make me look at you! It’s intense and very passionate. It makes me feel wanted and cared for and not just a quick fuck, like your enjoying me more than you have anyone else. 

I like being submissive, I like being controlled. Pick me up, push me against a wall. I’ll melt in your hands. 

Kiss my lips and kiss me all the way down and eat me out. Kiss my inner thighs. Eat like it’s the best supper you’ve ever had. Don’t rush it. And don’t forget the pussy ain’t the only thing I want licked. Not all but some of us women do like our ass being ate out as well. 

Men please learn the g-spot, a-spot, u-spot and the deep spot. They are all very arousing to us. Not everyone has heard of them all. I do lots of reading so I learn a lot lol. 

Spank me, whisper my name and dirty shit in my ear. Restrain my wrists with your hands and don’t be a pussy. Moan with me. 

Play with my clit while your fucking me, it’s highly sensitive. Just please enjoy me, all of me. 

Don’t run off or go to sleep right away. Women need to be held and cuddled. It’s not crazy it’s an awesome feeling. It makes us feel highly incredible about ourselves because we feel like we have made you feel awesomely amazing. 

I like being fingered while being kissed. It just does something to me like crazy. 

Well y’all this was the best writing I could do without whining about my current sucking life. I was reading earlier about us women and I thought I’d write my likes because a lot of us women like the same things it’s just I’m not afraid to ask for it or do them. And since I write, I will write about it in detail lol. It’s what I love❤️. 

I did read something about men watching too much porn and it ruining their sex life because they start expecting women to act like those actors. May be true idk. I watch porn and it helps me to get better actually. I may not be able to do everything they do which is probably fake anyhow but I learn things and perform better. 

Well goodnight y’all. Have a good night and great day tomorrow! 

Lori💋

Taking a break for a bit

I’m sorry but I can’t write anymore of this sad depressing shit I’m going through. Which means I can’t write. If I can come up with a positive story or something I will post that. But the more I write about it the more I think about it all. And I just spent close to 6 hours of being in complete terror. 

I guess it was panic attacks, that’s what it seemed/sounded like. I’ve never had one like that before an it scared the hell out of me. My bed is pushed up against two walls, in the corner and I sat in that corner almost the entire time. Scared, numb, shaking, crying, smothering, freaking out all at the same time. I was crying for somebody or anybody to show up. This shit is getting real and affecting me real bad. That’s why I’m taking a break. Something’s gotta give somewhere or I’m putting all my shit back in a storage unit and living out of my truck…fuck this life. 

I made a video earlier today before the panic attack. The link is below, hope it works right. See y’all later

Lori

Good Evening Everyone 

Hope everyone is having a great weekend! My facebook is flooded with posts and pics of kids graduating and families having fun. It’s so sweet to see all the fun and love. Just awesome! 

I have to say it’s sad for me, sorry but it is. My kids are grown and they do their own thing. I’m sitting here alone looking at it all on facebook and I just started bawling. It hurts so bad to have to sit here alone. It’s like I don’t have family anymore. 

It hurts so bad at just the thought of wanting to wrap my arms around someone and cuddle up to them…to be held. Ya just don’t understand how bad I need it. 

I seriously can’t wait until I’m over all this emotional shit. I’m getting tired of hurting and actually tired of writing about it. And I’m sure y’all are tired of hearing it. Lol

I’m sitting here watching Netflix and done made myself sick with pie and ice cream. Ugh. It’s only 9 and I’m ready to go to bed already. If I’m asleep I don’t hurt and don’t know I’m alone, seems like the best thing to do lol. 

Anyway I’m not gonna keep writing because I’m all sad and shit and I’ll just keep going with it. Have a great night everyone! 

Lori

Good Men 😍

This should be a shocker for you. Me writing something good about men instead of bashing them lol. All that bashing is purely from hurting so much. But I also still know there is some very good men out there, even ones that turn kinda bad are still good men. 

And what I mean by that is they have tried everything with their spouse they can to get the sexual & emotional needs that they have met. When their needs are not met some will go find it elsewhere. No it isn’t right at all BUT if their spouse truly loved them they wouldn’t be in need. 

Yes some men are just flat out whores and can’t get enough of every girl in town but I’m not gonna talk about them right now…that’s the ones I love to bash lol. 

But seriously though. If your man is asking you to do this or that, he’s needing something from you…you. You can’t just live with him and stop having sex with him. Men need lots of sex and if your not prepared for that you probably shouldn’t be in a relationship to start with. 

They always say women need lots of attention, kinda true but have you ever thought about your man? Guess what, so does he. All those little things women like,  men do to. Running your fingers through their hair making them sleepy. Massages. Foot rubs. Cuddled up to them & rubbing on their junk. Gifts….men like to be pampered too, doesn’t make them feminine at all. The men are always thought of as…they work, they fix things, you feed them, then bend over rushing them to get their nut so you can get them to go to bed. WRONG. 

Some men work very hard and very long hours. You think they want to be away from home all day? Nope. But a lot of women sit at home and let their men bust their ass for them and then they bitch because he wants a small piece of pussy from them before bed. And at some point some will start noticing other women. 

What about you being home all day even if you have small kids, why is there no supper for him? And no pussy? And no massage? Women wonder why they’re getting cheated on. I know some men cheat period, I’m one of those victims. No matter what you do, your not good enough to keep his dick usage only at home. They are no good. Until they are truly hurt by a woman they’re in love with they will never understand how much it hurts you. 

So have you thought about it? Whats your excuse? Too lazy? Too tired from chasing y’all’s kids all day? Tired from work? Well so is he. Men are the head of the household period, sorry to disappoint you women. I’m female and I believe that. I’ve worked and chased two little boys and had a meal cooked every single night, and fed every animal we had. It was my place. Not his. His place is well being the man of the house. He should be given that spot, you shouldn’t be ordering him around, it’s mutual. Just learn your place and let him have his place. You think I felt like giving oral after my busy days? Hell no, but I did. Why? Because it was my place. Yes I was took care of as well. You can’t ignore them. 

You want to hear ‘Your beautiful honey’? He wants and needs to hear how handsome he is and what a good man he is too. Ever think about that? Keep ignoring him and someone else will take your place where his needs are being neglected. She may take your whole spot if you ain’t careful. 

So what he wants something freaky you ain’t into. It won’t hurt you to compromise here and there will it? You expect him to not get laid for a week or two at a time don’t ya? You can compromise with him. Never give him ass?….give it up. Hardly ever suck his dick?….suck the skin off his dick. Never wanna be on top?….grind the fuck out of him….make him moan like hell. 

If you feel you shouldn’t have to cook or please him in anyway, you should leave him and let him find a good woman your robbing his time of. 

I know some of you men think I hate men, I don’t. I just have a problem with the cheating thing when I’m giving my all and I’m not enough. But, it’s the whores that’s doing it to me and I know that.

If you just really don’t want your good man….there’s women like me that will be glad and thankful to have them. Straighten that ass up or you will take a chance on losing him or him just simply getting some sweet pussy elsewhere because he can’t even remember what you feel like.🤔🤔. 

Gotta Love The Good Men!!!!!!!!! ❤️

Lori 

My Lazy Day 𗀽

Thought I would write some since I’m doing absolutely nothing but laying here staring out the window lol. It’s really relaxing and peaceful though. Kinda hot but oh well, I got my fan blowing on me. 

I have so much racing through my mind it’s crazy. I don’t know how I’m gonna make it either and quite frankly I don’t give a damn today. I got up, took a bath and got fixed up for nothing other than to lay around. Story of my life ugh. Whatever I’ll just keep myself occupied I suppose-I’m getting used to it. 

Don’t ya kinda have this love/hate feeling when you catch somebody lying to you? Like your glad you found out but at the same time you’re extremely disappointed? Honestly for me it doesn’t surprise me anymore, I mostly look at it like ‘That all you got m’f ???’. That’s ok though, they can do what they do but will not do it to me again. I’ve reached an enormous level of Fuck It & Fuck You that you would not believe. Finding out things/lies/deception is bad enough but when they expect you to believe them it’s another. 

I’m still loving the private journal app I have. It feels so good to say things I can’t tell anyone at all. And to cuss out every mother fucker I want too!!! Ahhhhh so relieving!! It’s actually too relieving because certain people are becoming more clear to me by me venting which means they may lose their spot in my life. Yea my phones will have to be buried with me no doubt. I know too much and say too much and oh at the screenshots that are proof of lies. 

And those people have caused me to not want or care anymore. 

They don’t give a rats ass about my feelings. Why should I care about their needs? 

Enough of that junk for today. 

I love my new puppy, she’s so tiny and cute. She does have a big mouth though lol, done woke me up from my nap. But I’m so lonely I have to have animals at least around me. They force me to have to get up and take care of them which is good for me because I would lay here and die. Oh and I’m getting a bunny too, excited about that too! 

It’s funny how animals excite me more than humans. I can trust them. And they love me unconditionally. 

I really need…..ya know𗀄,I’m jk. I used to get banged like hell all the time. I don’t anymore. Guess others are better than me. I used to feel wanted and cared for but that’s all gone now. 

Yes it’s a poor little me day. It’s my day why not? LOL 

Y’all have great rest of the day. I’m gonna continue to be lazy. 

Lori